High as fuck. Drunk as fuck.

annarborgator · Post by **annarborgator** » Tue Mar 09, 2010 10:59 pm

I wish.

annarborgator · Post by **annarborgator** » Tue Mar 09, 2010 11:04 pm

Anything to avoid the government's good squad, though.

annarborgator · Post by **annarborgator** » Tue Mar 09, 2010 11:15 pm

The world confuses the hell out of me. I don't ask anything of anyone except that they refrain from violence toward me. And yet the world apparently wants much more of me than to refrain from violence.

annarborgator · Post by **annarborgator** » Tue Mar 09, 2010 11:16 pm

The fucked up thing is that the world doesn't want answers. It only wants to find immoral ways to make money using the State's power.

annarborgator · Post by **annarborgator** » Tue Mar 09, 2010 11:17 pm

It's really difficult not to walk off into the lake and never come back.

annarborgator · Post by **annarborgator** » Tue Mar 09, 2010 11:19 pm

How can one not be depressed living their life at the point of a gun? I've yet to figure out the answer to such a question.

annarborgator · Post by **annarborgator** » Tue Mar 09, 2010 11:21 pm

I suppose all I can do is appreciate the little bit of life that I'm allowed. But I don't yet know how to do that when I've experienced a few moments of real freedom. The expectations that I'm now aware of are mind-numbing.

annarborgator · Post by **annarborgator** » Tue Mar 09, 2010 11:22 pm

Yea, I know, I'm a whiner. I'm spoiled. I need to shut the fuck up and appreciate what I've been given.

annarborgator · Post by **annarborgator** » Tue Mar 09, 2010 11:23 pm

But how am I supposed to do that when there is so much more that is possible? Most people live in the world they're given. I see the world that has been taken away from all of us.

annarborgator · Post by **annarborgator** » Tue Mar 09, 2010 11:24 pm

Maybe one day our society will value freedom. Until then I will live as a prisoner.

annarborgator · Post by **annarborgator** » Tue Mar 09, 2010 11:26 pm

My only freedom comes with absolute solitude. It's only then that I can forget the pain forced upon me by everyone else.

annarborgator · Post by **annarborgator** » Tue Mar 09, 2010 11:27 pm

A guy at the bar the other day told me how well read I was. I think I am addicted to informational inputs because of how confusing the world is to me. It's like I'm hoping that somehow I will find an answer. And yet I know there is no answer.

annarborgator · Post by **annarborgator** » Tue Mar 09, 2010 11:28 pm

At least I'll go down fighting unlike the vast majority of the slaves out there.

annarborgator · Post by **annarborgator** » Tue Mar 09, 2010 11:29 pm

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aE7rkSELM3I#

annarborgator · Post by **annarborgator** » Tue Mar 09, 2010 11:32 pm

I don't ask for pity. I am who I am for a reason. It may be a tragedy, but I'm committed to it and accept the outcome.

annarborgator · Post by **annarborgator** » Tue Mar 09, 2010 11:33 pm

"Always remember there was nothing worth sharing like the love that let us share our name."

annarborgator · Post by **annarborgator** » Tue Mar 09, 2010 11:35 pm

I wish I had an IQ of about 70. Life would rock.

annarborgator · Post by **annarborgator** » Tue Mar 09, 2010 11:38 pm

How fucked up is it that society effectively punishes smart people? Meh.

annarborgator · Post by **annarborgator** » Tue Mar 09, 2010 11:43 pm

I'm reading a book being published online and he mentioned another book (something by Stephen King, I think? Not sure) that included a person who was in solitary confinement in prison and somehow everyone else around him died. Can you imagine? Fuck. Sometimes I feel like that. Entirely stuck with nobody to let me out of my cage. Then I usually somehow find, by absolute grace, a new piece of literature that opens my mind to new ideas and boggles my mind. I love that feeling when a piece of writing can shake you to your soul and you're never the same again.

I want to write something like that. And one day I will. When I find the words. Or when they're given to me.

annarborgator · Post by **annarborgator** » Tue Mar 09, 2010 11:54 pm

Does english really not have a neuter pronoun for speaking about human beings? Are we relegated to "it"? If so, that makes me ashamed of my heritage.

annarborgator · Post by **annarborgator** » Tue Mar 09, 2010 11:56 pm

I've concluded that law school is the worst way anyone can choose to spend 3 years of their life.

annarborgator · Post by **annarborgator** » Tue Mar 09, 2010 11:58 pm

I wonder when I'll find the courage to do something I actually enjoy. Is there anything I actually enjoy that can provide a reasonable living? It's a valid question.

annarborgator · Post by **annarborgator** » Wed Mar 10, 2010 12:03 am

Gonna start plantin' the spring garden this week. I love tasks that most educated folks think are beneath them.

radbag · Post by **radbag** » Wed Mar 10, 2010 7:49 am

you just need to get laid bud....how long's it been? ....and don't count the pro's.

G8RKyle · Post by **G8RKyle** » Wed Mar 10, 2010 9:13 am

Get to work on that garden bro. Manual labor is good for the soul.